Evasion

Walking through the township of my mortal soul
Dragging all the heartache that rendered me once whole
Shacks of beating rhythms and undying words
Surrendered in the hollow of your gentle verbs

Your silence in enriching but so far apart
My illness of occasion brings the need to start
If the greed of lust and glory conquers my domain
Then broken scraps of laughter must also remain

Time is being helpful in my last resort
Day to day I wither from your grave support
May I speak the words that dangle to my throat?
May I fill the blanks in your loving note?

Keep your heart adrift and I will follow through
Every single spotlight leads me right to you
Angel of my daydreams and my blazing star
Think of me in reason and I’ll never be too far

Big Mouth

Do you ever get the feeling that you talk too much?
That everything you do keeps you out of touch
When you link it out first and you ponder it through
I’ll promise you now it won’t leave you in the blue

When you stare at that girl every second of every day
But you think it over and you don’t know what to say
You just dream of her and it’s so real that it hurts
Then why is it so hard to go right ahead and flirt

Oh I wish I had a big mouth, a cheap mouth, maybe that would work
I would blab it out, tare it out, I might just need a perk
All the the big mouths I know finally get the girl
But I’m a small mouth boy and I’m just left out in a twirl

I bought a guitar at a pawn shop, cost me half a buck
Almost gave up and threw up when they said that I suck
But I kept on playing like a loveless fool
Got me in and out of trouble, hardly ever went to school

I’ve got a gig now, a show now, and they all scream my name
But she’s not there, she’s not here, talk about a shame
I stress no longer ´cause I’m jamming all the place
Can’t believe that back in the day I was lost in outerspace

I might have a small mouth, a tight mouth but I’m still ok
I don’t talk, I don’t smile, nothing left to say
But now you’re here, right here, and that’s just how we’ll be
She’s a big mouth girl, who did the talking for me

Alas, a bad day

It's official, I'm having one of those moody blues. As a matter of fact, I can't recall the last time I've been so... down. I’m not feeling suicidal or mad, or even violent, just depressed without no apparent reason or effect. I’m just going to keep on writing senselessly because experience has taught me that this is by far the best form of therapy. It’s been a long time since I’ve written on this blog and most of you have probably thought that I was either dead or missing. The biggest news is that I’m working and enjoying every second of it. I’m single and quite happy about it and the freedom that comes attached. I had forgotten how inspiring it is not to have to answer to your “soulmate” and carry on with countless fights and jelousy streaks. On the other hand, I miss the cuddling the ludacris words, the gestures and the plain pointlessness of one in love. In a line, I’m the most self-confident chap you’ll ever meet, however I still haven’t got a hang of how feelings work. I hate repeating myself and it’s something that I’ve regretably gotten accostumed to. This post is going nowhere and we all know it. It’s just been a tough morning, but rest assured, I won’t be ressurecting any alter-ego MALE VALUES sequel. Pardon my monologue and my depressing ways. Tomorrow might be a better day, but for now, sad times call for rainy weather. It’s a pity the sun is shining outside.

Missing That Missy

It starts out like any ordinary track
A daydream boy writing hard down on his back
But this no name boy had it filling up inside
Didn't spit it out 'cause they'd think that he had lied

Like any ordinary song there had to be a girl
Sweet as can be she had her hair up in a twirl
She smiles at him makes his roof shake off it's place
Clumsy as can be the boy was nothing but disgrace

He knew her for years but had never seen her smile
Just didn't see her like the way he did that night
Saying he doesn't miss her would be nothing but denial
Pretending not to care just didn't nearly seem that right

'Cause he's missing that missy, never thought that he would fall again
'Cause he's missing that missy, staring at her in that way
'Cause he's missing that missy, he's drowning inside, under the tide
'Cause he's missing that missy, and that missy is you

On that ordinary day he got the guts and walked right to her
Didn't know what to say though he knew it didn't matter
Stared her straight in the eyes, she smiled again, her halo lit
He didn't know what to say, he messed up again, his brain just split

But he said

'Cause I'm missing that missy, never thought that I would fall again
'Cause I'm missing that missy, staring at you in that way
'Cause I'm missing that missy, I'm drowning inside, under the tide
'Cause I'm missing that missy, and that missy is you

Phoenix

Your light is blinding and so is your flair
I try my best but I still have to stare
You struck me so, night straight to day
How can a friend be reborn in this way?

Friendship and love are crossroads apart
Romance like this reluctant to start
I feel something new and blissful in you
Enfatuation apart, should it be true?

If this path leads to you and the comfort you bring
I shall quench my thirst and my laughter to sing
Praise to the Phoenix, Afrodite of madness
Heal all my wounds and deliver me from sadness

Secrecy

Am I binding with your gentle grace
Or lingering on your grave embrace
Am I dreaming on while life goes by
Or fooling on another sweet lie

Is life this way for the fate of some
Or is my sorrow a taste of to come
Is love a curse I must endure
Or a relieving omen I must secure

For to feel a man in vain must face
Another ache of the mind one cannot trace
Emotion dead and out of sight
Love no more I say out of spite

The New Year has just arrived and with it comes innovation.

Soon I'll be creating my DIGIFOLIO, where you can see what I've been up to instead of writing!

I hope you all enjoy it, and above all, spread the news!


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